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Bon Iver - I Can't Make You Love Me / Nick of Time

2012-03-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

the end.

2012-03-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

i've made mistakes
but you're my biggest mistake

so far

2012-03-04T18:41:00.010+08:00

Just friends.

The Perishers - Come Out of The Shade [Official Music Video]

2012-03-03T07:34:00.000+08:00

The Perishers - Nothing like you and I

2012-03-03T07:01:00.000+08:00

MISHKA PIZZA PARTY!

2012-03-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

can i have a family like this one day? husky dogs, a beautiful son

Kendrick Lamar - A.D.H.D

2012-02-29T16:53:00.000+08:00

Mesita - Somewhere Else (2011)

2012-02-29T07:02:00.003+08:00

just sharing with you guys a new band that i found thanks to a youtube-er that i've been 'stalking' recently. i really love their sound. this is the kind of music that i really need, in the midst of my healing journey.

i can imagine you somehow, i can already imagine how happy i would be with you. you're out there. i can feel it.

How I Style: Headscarfs

2012-02-29T06:32:00.001+08:00

for you guys who asked me how i tied my headscarf

actually i just tied it without even knowing what im doing
i know its not the same but i think this one looks better
because the way i tied it makes me look like a maid

enjoy!

Radiohead - True Love Waits

2012-02-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Radiohead - Karma Police

2012-02-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

i took you back

and you left me again

karma police, arrest this man

Nirvana-I Hate Myself And Want To Die

2012-02-28T10:48:00.000+08:00

2012-02-28T10:38:00.004+08:00

why

still

hanging

Nirvana - Something In The Way

2012-02-28T03:02:00.000+08:00

Queen - 'Bohemian Rhapsody'

2012-02-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

Radiohead - Creep

2012-02-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

feeling sad and blue on a sunday

technically its already a monday i guess since now is 12.44am
cut bangs on impulse
I REGRET

TOO PUSSY TO SAY NO

2012-02-26T06:08:00.010+08:00

haha kadang2 macam nak ketawekan diri aku
bodoh lah kau nurul jannah
kenape bodoh sangat
kenape?
jawab sikit
oh, tau jawapan? tau? asal tak buat?
oh sayang!
sayang.......
sayang tapi hati sakit buat ape?
oh biar hati sakit asalkan jangan kehilangan die?
oh macam gitu
bodoh la tu!
kenape bodoh sangat?
kenape?
haha
kelakar

i know where i stand la
no need to keep pointing it out to my face
everyday, meeting me, without fail eh?
ade je bende pasal aku kau nak kutuk
and i just take it with a smile
layankan
oh kelakarnye!
ha
ha
ha
:)
tapi kau mane tau pe
aku balik rumah
aku tengok diri aku
aku fikir
bukan bukan
hari hari aku mandi
aku berus badan aku
kalau boleh nak berus semue keburukkan aku, semue
kasi hilang
but sorry to say ah jannah thats not gonna happen
so....... tak de makne nye lah
kau try macam mane pun nak jadi perfect, tapi tak boleh jannah please jangan degil.
so kau kene stop je
just stop

k whatever cibai
malas

those are my feelings for tonight.
so.................. back to:

WHAT I DID ON MY SATURDAY NIGHT
A PERSONAL RECOUNT BY: DURRAH NURUL JANNAH

i went out with my friends, fathin alana sarah and lisa.
i wore: jeans. tanktop. slippers. I will always wear jeans tanktop and slippers because i am boring and broke B&B
the tanktop did not flatter my body at all it made my boobs pop out horrendously and it showed the sides of my bra.
we went town > bugis to shisha (the brownies were not nice and its only one small square cost me 7 fucking bucks i dont even like tub ice cream idk why i chose brownies with ice cream maybe because i expected the ice cream to taste better)
i dont really like ice cream
people keep hitting on my friends
didn't know i had an invisibility cloak on under stealth mode

and now its 6am and i reached home an hour ago?
so yah the riding was fucking fun eventho the guy i ride with is like on a gilera or wassit a 125z it still went so fucking fast. they perah the bike perah2 until 160km/h
fuck my life my neck almost snap into two it was so so so FASTTTTTT
and he did a fucking wheelie without telling me and i think my soul kinda kissed the perimeters of hell for a second
so today i laughed alot and i ate alot and yah i think i wanted to waste my money i guess so i keep buying food
or maybe i was eating my feelings?
i dont know
i dont bother
idk whther im the kind of person who eats alot or who eats very little
it just depends on the days. on a monday, i eat alot and maybe on a tuesday i dont eat much, on a wednesday i eat like rice like an asian on a mission, and maybe on thursday i eat some junkfood and im done?

Stalley "The Tune Up"

2012-02-25T07:30:00.000+08:00

he's a muslim. nice

Curren$y - Corvette Door [Muscle Car Chronicles New 2011 Album] with Dow...

2012-02-25T07:03:00.000+08:00

Cassie - King Of Hearts

2012-02-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

or am i just deluded

2012-02-22T23:59:00.005+08:00

when normality starts to sink in, i then realize how most people live their lives in such unabashed monotony. It's a sad sight. I believe our minds are capable of so much more. We just need the right catalysts

Today.

i dont know what to say about today.
okay actually i have a lot to say about today its just that i dont know what i really feel about it
i know that today, Thursday 23rd February 2012, i have given my ex closure (the fansyuri guy. i guess by now you all are having a difficult time figuring out who's who Lol sorry). he's been waiting for me for 3 years and that's not a funny thing at all. So i seriously need to give him a wake up call I feel like... Gandalf the grey. If u dont know who Gandalf is i suggest you start knowing him. Okay nvm lets just change him to Dumbledore. so basically i feel like Dumbledore just now because Dumbledore always says stuff that just makes you.....see. so basically what my wizard-self told him was: "fansyuri. there's a girl out there who will give your life meaning one day. but that girl is not me. you should move on." i said a lot more harsher things after that. out of context stuff that'll probably make his self-esteem disintegrate into erm, nothing. OK i basically said 1) you are not my type 2) you're gay-er than last time 3) gay 4) u deserve this

So anyway i think its important to provide an ex-boyfriend with proper closure, so that he will stop deluding himself. i am sure that my method is not the most humane method to make someone move on but idk this is just how i do it and i simply cant think of any other way. And by closure i mean, Permanent Closure. no more meet ups, no more contact no nothing. because that's the best way. I dont know why but the word 'weaning' comes into mind whenever i want to give someone THE CLOSURE (in capital just because) But dont u think so? its like weaning them off you.

okay so back to me, anyway i think i gave the best possible closure talk

"okay so u see this table? i want u to dump all ur feelings on to this table, all of it, all all all. and when we walk away from this table, i want ur feelings for me to remain here. on this table."
i kinda use the table as an anchor for his feelings. idk whether it works.
i think it didnt.
but i just felt good saying it. made me feel wise and Dumbledore-ish

but seriously i feel so sorry for him, he's gone too soft, 3 years of being miserable and messing around with his dopamine receptors made him into a pitiful lump of fansyuri.. = Fansyuri 2.0 and i cannot STAND fansyuri 2.0 and he just oozes off negative vibes and i can feel myself like, idk i just feel a drowning icky sensation omg never have i met someone so sad i keep blaming myself because im the one who made him turn into this muck. but he had me last time. he was given a chance. and it's his loss. because i truly loved him but now all that's left of my feelings is just Pity.
it's a shame because he let me destroy him

2012-02-22T14:05:00.004+08:00

im going to change you to a happy man, to a better man, but just take me as a friend

even if i couldnt love you the way you love me

2012-02-22T08:26:00.000+08:00

Who I am and What I Want

2012-02-22T03:58:00.000+08:00

as much as it hurts, its quite a liberating feeling, really.

2012-02-20T05:28:00.003+08:00

.......just passing by

im gonna make myself a happy girl turn that frown upside down

for the guys who love chinese looking girls so much

am i chinese enough now

2012-02-20T04:47:00.000+08:00

Lana Del Rey - Oh Say Can You See

2012-02-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

Please

2012-02-18T07:53:00.001+08:00

Please learn to put this in your mind janny. He doesnt care.

2012-02-16T03:20:00.003+08:00

so here i am blogging because apparently i cant tweet bcs jani's twitcon is a picture of someone having alot of black holes on his head and it disgusts the fuck out of me so i give up in tweeting while covering his twitcon with one hand bcos its very tiring and i just dont want to look at that holes-man anymore its too disgusting he doesnt know how much i hate things with alot of holes

great now he just sent a FUCKING PICTURE OF THE HOLES-MAN TO MY PHONE now i too scared to unlock my iphone la sia, my body all feeling all creeped out and itchy erghhhh

....i just unlocked my phone by facing it to the other side

ppl will think im overreacting

but i seriously

cannot

cannot

stand any kind of holes picture

oh ya anyway just now i met adam, my new friend LOL

we hung out and yep thats all for today :-)

i keep saying that i want to leave him

and tht i give up

and shit like that

but then when he acts all nice and lovey dovey and stuff i'll be like ahhh fuck my anger i love him

u know at first i'll be like, i can do this i can leave him

i can ignore his calls

i can ignore his texts

but the moment he REALLY calls my heart just falters and im like "oh my baby.."

HATE

SELF

WANNA KILL

MY SELF

DUE TO

STUPIDITY

AND ALWAYS LISTENING TO THE HEART AND NOT THE BRAIN

erghhh come on heart!!!! u know he is treats u like SHIT

u know he Breaks u, he steps on you, he makes you hurt and throb with pain

so why the fuck do u still love him sia?

wait, but the heart is just an organ that pumps blood

its not responsible for our feelings.

ITS YOU BRAIN!!!!!!!

you are the one who stimulates feelings and emotions

you did this to me. if u can make me fall in love with him, u jolly well can make me fall OUT of love too. u are such a sadistic little creature, u brain. love hurting yourself huh? well idgaf if u wanna hurt urself just stop hurting me and poor mr. heart who is just innocently pumping blood so YOU can LIVE! u ungrateful son of a bitch.

and fuck you!11!!!!!!!!

U Know who u are

2012-02-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day

my valentines day sucked

i made this for yayat

and gave it to him at his doorstep

and idk i kind of cried alot today

in the mrt

outside his house

under his block

hmm ok thats all i guess

Patrick Swayze /Dirty Dancing - The Time of My Life/

2012-02-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

i want to dance with someone like this

i try

2012-02-12T03:24:00.001+08:00

i just got to know that he still hasnt gotten over me after 8 months. I almost laughed at the irony of it because looking at the bigger picture, all i see is a fucking love triangle. Here comes an ex who hasnt gotten over me, but im loving a guy who hasnt gotten over HIS ex, but his ex is attached to someone else already. seriously? Seriously god? now u are making ME feel guilty for fucking over a capable and goodlooking guy. apparently 6/8 months ago i wouldve jumped at the opportunity of getting back with taufiq but the frustrating thing is whenever someone wants me back, i lost feelings for them already. WHY CANT THEY EVER WANT ME WHEN I WANT THEM? why must they act like total jerks while im still so in love with them and then regret and whine like babies AFTER i found someone new and when i try to tell them that "im sorry but u treated me like shit last time" they still have the fucking CHEEK to push the blame back to me by saying that "you made mistakes too". Hey asshole, my kind of person will NEVER cheat if someone is treating me right. thats just asking for it. so anyway i was more pissed than touched at the fact tht he hasnt moved on because he hasnt changed ONE BIT. Still a fucking child. I cant believe a human being like this exists. Such a waste. So good looking but so so Unbelievably annoying and.. I know him too well and and i am truly disgusted by his attitude and way of life. Apparently now he is the talk of the town, i guess. with girls all being like "ooo taufiq tyga is so handsome" and "oo who is this taufiq he is so cute ooo" and im over here like..."hahaha bitch....u dont know shit!" at least i can smile to myself knowing that these dumb girls dont know fucking shit about him and i wish them luck. But sometimes i catch myself thinking that maybe just maybe i should get back with him because as much of an asshole he is sometimes, he is the ONLY guy who accepts me 100% flaws and all but No, im not gonna hurt him like last time. Im not gonna hurt him just because i am alone, desperate, and unsure. U know how horrible the feeling is? Faking a relationship just so that you can trick your mind into thinking youre not alone, forcing yourself to love him so you wont think
About the one you really love? I tell u this, its a horrible, gut wrenching feeling and even after u break up, u will still feel the aftermath of fucking a good guy up just because of Ur own selfish needs. U know, something called karma. And that shit has no mercy i tell you this

just a regular night at orchard

2012-02-10T08:37:00.001+08:00

BRING ME THE HORIZON - Diamonds Aren't Forever (UNCENSORED VERSION)

2012-02-10T03:47:00.000+08:00

Metronomy - Not Made For Love

2012-02-09T19:04:00.000+08:00

2012-02-09T18:25:00.007+08:00

i always pretend to be happy but i know that 2012 is not going to be a good year for me

did i tell u guys that
i hate my face
i hate my body
i hate my life
i hate the fact that
a guy
keeps making me believe that im not good enough
for anyone
i cant believe that stupid teenage infatuation
is making such a big impact on me
what about other people in this world
who have bigger problems
like taking care of their broken family
like fighting to be alive everyday in a war-torn country
like being bullied at school and having no friends
like having a sexually abusive dad
like.. being made to work in a factory and paid like,50 cents per day
.....and here i am worrying about a PETTY boy

i am a pathetic shallow human being

its really hurtful you know
it really really hurts

pls god, take away this pain
or open his heart
or just kill him

ok i take that back the killing him part

Frank Ocean Thinking About You

2012-02-09T07:47:00.000+08:00

Rihanna - You Da One

2012-02-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

love her style

2012-02-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

STRFKR - Bury Us Alive [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO]

2012-02-07T20:31:00.001+08:00

Non Tiq - Quiet (HD)

2012-02-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

:(

2012-02-07T08:35:00.001+08:00

Nothing hurts more than this

Shit Black Guys Say

2012-02-07T05:28:00.000+08:00

Shit Tumblr Girls Say: The Sequel

2012-02-07T04:44:00.000+08:00

2012-02-06T06:26:00.003+08:00

in the process of enlarging my lobes - did 4mm yesterday

date with the best friend:

Metronomy - Corinne

2012-02-06T05:25:00.000+08:00

Crookers - We Are Prostitutes

2012-02-06T03:37:00.000+08:00

oohhh yeah shake ya tail featharrrrr

Carter's Pop-up Books

2012-02-06T02:47:00.000+08:00

Unbunny - You Run Like a Girl

2012-02-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Cassius - I Love U So

2012-02-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

Ellie Goulding - Under The Sheets (Chiddy Bang Remix)

2012-02-02T09:10:00.000+08:00

Almost Lover - A fine Frenzy ( lyrics)

2012-02-02T07:57:00.000+08:00

2012-01-31T21:00:00.001+08:00

di sini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu

bila esok hari datang lagi
ku coba hadapi semua ini
meski tanpamu, meski tanpamu
bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Hijau Daun - Suara (Ku Berharap)

2012-01-31T20:59:00.000+08:00

fort canning

2012-01-31T07:36:00.004+08:00

=^-^=

meet my princesses,

yes the guys are my princesses too

gay

very gay

us trying out helium gas

How to Draw a Realistic Eye (Time Lapse)

2012-01-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

wai oh wai

2012-01-30T09:28:00.002+08:00

Thanks god,you never fail to present me with assholes, keep sending me so many I CANT KEEP UP ☹

2012-01-29T23:25:00.004+08:00

senang benar kau ucapkan,
kau kata itu suratan,
sikit pun riak wajahmu tiada terkilan

this is totally something i would do if it was 4am and i was lonely and on the verge of a mental breakdown

2012-01-27T04:18:00.001+08:00

Story of my motherfucking life

2012-01-26T06:26:00.001+08:00

I feel like total bullshit. Every year some guy manages to break my heart. Every fucking year. Its always the same old shit over and over again as far i can remember. 2012 Y. 2011 A>T>Y. 2010 A. 2009 AK. 2008 R>A. 5 years. 6 different guys. Same old story.

2012-01-26T00:22:00.001+08:00

I cannot replace you. You win. I will always be his 2nd option. Nothing more than that. I give up.

2012-01-22T05:37:00.001+08:00

i just came to give you a hello

but you pulled my hello by the tail

and asked me to stay

you liked how i say hello

so i stayed

but hello can only do so much

its an ex kind of thing

2012-01-21T15:56:00.006+08:00

i know.
dont need to tell me.
i know :)

Just when i thought

2012-01-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

That we could be something, your ex made feel like shit again

2012-01-18T02:39:00.001+08:00

hi new hair colour.

purplish red

the boy came back.

trying to convince me....again

its been 5-6 months of on/off with you

i dont know what will become of us

but i dont know

im tired of speculating

let destiny do its job

2012-01-17T12:41:00.001+08:00

I look like i have alien vomit on my hair

I like it.

just doing my thing

2012-01-17T05:37:00.003+08:00

its now 5.34 in the morning and im tired of complaining about my body clock, i'll just let it do its own thing until april. did i tell you im starting private school now? taking psychology course @ MDIS, whadya think? i wanted to take masscom but then acquaintances and friends said you cant make it with masscom in sg cos there's alot of competition and the market is v small so idk i just want a good job in the future that can get me a IDK, A LIFE? haha yeah i wanna support my parents when they're old and retired, you know give back to them.....so im dyeing my hair purplish brown. i think its gonna be a flop. lol

follow me on tumblr here.

2012-01-17T05:11:00.007+08:00

i wish we can make beautiful love there's no need to hurry, spell out your name, sound out the vowels trace your skin so close i can taste the air you breathe out our lips hover like pink hummingbirds- unsure, whether to meet but we kiss anyway the friction of our lips causing a cataclysmic explosion it destroys alternate universes gives birth to stars we can make magic
we are magic

2012-01-17T04:22:00.005+08:00

I always wonder why
birds stay
in the same place
when they can fly
anywhere on the earth
Then I ask myself
the same question

- Harun Yahya

Western Spaghetti by PES

2012-01-16T06:50:00.000+08:00

Calvin Harris - Feel So Close

2012-01-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

20 seconds of courage or sheer stupidity (usually the latter)

2012-01-15T07:19:00.010+08:00

I come to realize that he's just a guy, a special one maybe, but he's not mine

OK

2012-01-12T23:59:00.001+08:00

Youre a conceited little bastard, so full of yourself. HOWEVER. despite all these negative qualities you embody, i still cant summon the strength or willpower to pull myself away from you. and that is clearly what im lacking here, or anywhere in my life - Which is discipline. If i could measure my discipline i think it would cover the circumference of....a microscopic organism with a very long scientific name. So basically,my discipline, close to none.

Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart - Piano Concerto No. 21 - Andante

2012-01-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

Like Moths To Flames - You Won't Be Missed (Video)

2012-01-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

"White Rabbit"-Jefferson Airplane Lyrics

2012-01-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

So...wassup last day of 2011

2011-12-31T13:26:00.001+08:00

Okay so i woke up like 30 mins ago. I dreamt that some indian guy from a mama shop gave me and fathin 2 bottles of cough syrup. So when i woke up, without brushing my teeth or whatever,i went to the kitchen, looked in the fridge and got myself 2 bottles of cough syrup both having a considerable amt of syrup left. (i rly am picking a lot of bad habits frm you) And then my mum suddenly came in the picture and she said she wanna talk to me about my studies andddd-let's skip that part. So i went down got one huge bottle of coke the 1.5 litre one, cos i always see them wasted myanmar dudes at cityhall with the bigass coke bottles. and while im at it,i kinda had this conversation with...myself. "so this is ur miserable attempt of trying to get high just to fight the low?" and im like..."err,hellyeah?" so that settles our debate. But is still considered a debate eventho im talking to myself? ............so i went back home, idk wht the hell im doing, i just drank that shit-tasting syrup(all of em) and drank my coke and yea i stuffed and inhaler up my nose..... ...... ..... So i waited. And waited. And nothing happen. No sudden feeling of euphoria.
Nothing. No high. So that is my failed attempt of being a myanmar dudette. The end .............Ok wait its not THE end but its just The End of my myanmar story cos im still gonna blog and fyi im blogging on my phone, lying down, steam-eyed. While lstening to Thunder-boys like Girls,no special reason behind it, its just the first song that plays. So anyway i read my twitter timeline and theyre all so hyped up abt newyear and im here being a potato and potating the last day of 2011 away. And i kinda like this, this moment of solitary relaxation,nothing crazy nothing loud. Just me. My phone. And trippy gay songs. Then at night i will end my 2011 in a simple way. Just me. And clarity. Starting 2012 in a whole new different light, its almost like i have kaladeiscope glasses..in my mind. So yeah. And the cough syrup is upsetting my stomach but i think it also makes me feel relaxed and chillaxy and drowsy. And sleepy. And im tryna not to sleep bcos it will go to Waste, this chillaxy feeling. eventho i think the desired effect is not this, what im feeling now, i gues its better than being,FULLY conscious. This lousy kind of high is enough for me, it beats not having anything. So i think my motto of 2012 is; "I get high just to fight the low" and that is courtesy of Mr J.Cole, from a song i alwys listen to when i feel miserable and very much appropriately titled 'Cheer Up' idk why i can stand only J Cole rapping and maybe sometimes big sean. But mostly its J cole cos his songs like....speak to me. But not now. I dont want J cole to speak to me yet. I rly feel like sleeping now...omg this drowiness rly making me so light headed. Wow this is nice. Its such a harmless sensation that you feel everyday but being conscious of you feeling this way just heightens the feeling more and you know this feeling its like, just normal drowsiness but i dk la once u aware of it, u will appreciate it and notice the difference(?) dk what im talking about. Ok anyway i dont rly have 2012 resolution. I dont even want to make a resolution its just pointless,
for what? For what. Thats the two words that explains EVERYTHING abt newyr resolutions;FOR WHAT. Making resolutions is like creating false hope for the whole 12 months of 2012 cos admit it no one rly accomplishes their resolutions because they always
Set the crappiest ones that they cant even control like "i dont want to fall in love' 'single for 2012 Yay'...come on that is like pissing Fate on his face, you cant detetmine that shit,you cant. And clearly resolutions have lost their meaning because you cannot RESOLVE anything, and by resolve it means solve. And how do u solve smtg if you cant control it 'specially something intangible like feelings. If u want to be thin then obviously u cn control it, control eating habits...possible or not is another story but able to control? Yes of course. But i think i know why we say stuff like that. Its just a Way of coping with all that bullshit 2011 moments, i rly dont know how my 2012 will be,its like the foggiest year cos i dont know whats in front of me, i dont know what to expect AT ALL seriously. Last 2010 at least i havr a general Picture of whats gonna happen on 2011, i have sch to look forward to, i have like a rough sketch but for 2012 its like a completely blank slate. Idk whether i be schlin or workin idk whats so gonna happen to my social life,as scary the thought of not having a future is, its somehow exciting not to have the slightest idea. Like this line frm a movie watched. let me quote, "Just wing it.".....just fucking run ahead, and we'll deal with it when happens. Idk whether this makes e sound like a lazy,unambitious pessimist or a spontaneous risk taker. Maybe im both (pessimist 60% risk taker 40%) hey sounds like paradox, pessismistic risktaker. Willing to take a risk but alwys expecting the worst. How like that. Can make it or not in singapore like this? Haha. I am such a lost cause.

2011-12-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

Lol all so busy planning about countdown
all busy planning what to wear
who to countdown with
WHERE to countdown,thats important!:D
haha
me?
i'll just sit at home
and burn up
like a good girl

2011-12-30T20:03:00.001+08:00

i dont know what you want from me
lol
fun for you aint it

Oasis - Wonderwall

2011-12-30T19:32:00.000+08:00

Coldplay - Us Against The World (Mylo Xyloto)

2011-12-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

To feel so clear-headed but be so delusional.

2011-12-30T18:21:00.006+08:00

"You have the power to make everything okay.

I think that’s what kept me so sane and so happy the whole time, is my ability to disregard things and be okay with them no problem."

Dumme Jungs - Epic

2011-12-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

Boys Noize - Let's Buy Happiness

2011-12-27T13:36:00.000+08:00

2011-12-22T20:27:00.001+08:00

22 december. a few more days and it'll be the end of 2011,this year has been an awesome year for me in a sense that i learn alot of new things, did alot of new stuff and basically have 101% freedom,no holds barred.
eventho currently i am really aimless lifeless jobless school-less

2010 fireworks. such beautiful fireworks but i watched them with such a sad heart,i forced myself to go out with a boy to forget my ex and i pretended to have such a good time on countdown and it really sucked because all i keep thinking was "this is not fun. why am i here. i miss you. why." and i dont want to experience that again this year eventho i've just been dumped this month and i didnt see it coming because he seemed like he was so into me turns out that he is abit mental because he left me with no apparent reason and the reason that he gave is actually a blatant lie so basically i can conclude that he left without a reason

Kasabian - Days Are Forgotten

2011-12-19T09:46:00.000+08:00

Lykke Li - Until We Bleed

2011-12-16T15:40:00.000+08:00

CASSIE "Make You A Believer"

2011-12-15T03:01:00.000+08:00

"By Your Side" - Acoustic Sade Cover

2011-12-13T07:56:00.001+08:00

everything about her is so beautiful

"By Your Side" - Acoustic Sade Cover

2011-12-13T07:56:00.000+08:00

everything about her is so beautiful

PUMPED UP KICKS|DUBSTEP

2011-12-13T07:26:00.000+08:00

SBDC 2011 Finals - Freekzy Nutz (Open Category Champion)

2011-12-13T06:31:00.000+08:00

Dubstep Dance France "Preuve par 4"

2011-12-13T06:12:00.000+08:00

watching this for e 2nd time

"I Follow Rivers" - Lykke Li Cover

2011-12-13T02:13:00.000+08:00

reviving the blog back to life

2011-12-09T03:44:00.004+08:00

just showing off my pits Har Har... told you plucking is good
for anyone who shaves ur pitty hair,throw away all ur shavers.buy a plucker and start plucking those hairs,it has become my fav past time,plucking pitty hair ~(-_-)~

myra"kau nampak mak die buat die mcm anjing"

who the hell puts leashes on their children,eventho its not ard his head but still,its just not..right

2011-12-07T07:13:00.000+08:00

OMG i just had a lightbulb-on-my-head moment
i should change my blog layout according to seasons or holidays or something!
hmm yes that will be totally cute

2011-12-07T06:43:00.001+08:00

2011-12-02T21:32:00.004+08:00

if there is any way possible to forget someone i dont care by what means, black magic or whatsoever, please contact me x

2011-11-27T08:24:00.004+08:00

"why do i always get the shorter straw when it comes to love"

i can only think of that sentence right now but theres a billion thoughts running in my mind which im too tired to type down

and i look at all my blogposts
all so sad
and depressing
lol
but seriously my blog is the only place where i can ventilate my thoughts
because twitter is too...idk
and facebook is too...idk
and tellling anyone wont make a difference
idk la idk laaaaaaaaa ergh afhkagoahsfdk

cb la kalau boleh aku nak potong kepala kau, korek otak kau and know what u really think of me so i dont have to keep wondering and wondering and wondering...mentally exhausting you know

2011-11-24T18:03:00.000+08:00

i dont deserve you.
not a single bit.
so i'll willingly
let you go
for someone who deserves you
a chinese chick maybe
or a fair-skinned malay
with cascading hair
you know you dig girls with long hair
and pretty legs
any girl,
just not me