screenshot this from my old blog

if you know, you know ok if u dunno then...aint gona help chaaa

wah last time i so semangat blog everyday update with long paragraphs, english also not that bad...now my english like...ergh CMI alr 

its rare for me to update my blog nowadays cos im getting lazier and lazier /: plus busier and busier. i am a lazy, busy person? o.0 ok anyways this is like from last week im pretty sure my blog readers who have my fb would know that.......omg i am so boring ok i seriously am losing my touch. anyway i guess since this blog is getting dusty already not alot of ppl will be reading it anymore and its good for me because i tend to be feel less restricted when i type out whats on my mind if u know what im saying

hmm me and yat.
what can i say.....
ok since i know that he doesnt have my blog link, wait, i doubt he even knows that i have a blog, i can pretty much tell u guys what i HONESTLY think of us.
do i love him? = yes i love him the way i would love a boyfriend
do i trust him = yes for now
do i think i can last long with him = no

idk i just have this feeling that there is something missing in our relationship, still figuring out whether the problem lies in me or him. me being the fact that i am expecting too much, or him performing too little. we fought once and as i expected, its abt his past. ok wait i think i know why. his past. his past is the thing that keeps haunting me since day1. i have this miserable, miserable obsession with digging up history and getting all paranoid over it but i have every reason to do so. i know that i have every reason to do so. right?

and we really have drastically different sense of humour.
i swear to god.

then u guys will think...god janny, if he is really all that, then why be with him in the first place?
ok for starters, he makes me feel..different. with taufiq, yeah its sweet you know. nicely taken couple pictures to deceive people that we're happy, sweet wallposts with pretty words but empty meanings, ambitious promises that always leaves me hanging....yeah... me and taufiq. sweet couple huh!!! :-) for those slow ppl pls know that i am being sarcastic

me and yat - its too early to tell but i know that its going to be different, i can FEEL and i KNOW its going to be different. nevermind for better or for worse. as long as it feels different its good. different is good. i dont expect a smooth journey, i know me and yat we're gonna have major differences, we're gonna have arguments over small things, third parties. definitely going to be a third party involved. see? im not stupid, i know these kind of things are bound to happen, i've laid out a mental picture of our relationship and i have prepared myself for the worst.


anyway the hype about me and taufiq has died down, finally. and now its all about whether he's dating rafika or mira or that chua girl or that girl who deleted me for idk what reason..but even with all those girls, i know deep inside he is miserable. but yeah i dont really feel much sympathy for him cos he made me pissed off a few days ago because of what he did to my mum and how unconvincing he sounds when i try to squeeze the truth out for him. dont ask me what he did cos.....i wont tell. and yes, as much as i hate him now, i will still be jealous if he finally settles down with a girl but then its a normal feeling for ex-es to have especially when we just broke up. i try to convince myself that i still love him and that i want to work things out with him, believe me i tried. but i just cant. whenever i try to revive my past feelings towards him, the only thing i feel is a dull sensation

Bimbo moments with janny

the title speaks for itself. so yeah it was my first time like officially meeting up with wirda and hanging out with her cos usually we only bump into each other and make small talk..and tats kinda it. so yeah,this is the first time like i said. she's super easy to get along with and wirda told me her sis reads my blog so i decided to suprise her sister too and i got a hug! ;) plus bat is so freakin matured and taller than i expected!

anyway i read that a lot of wirda's formspring followers ask her to do a room/house tour and i dont know why the hell she doesnt do it because her house looks like it freakin jumped out from tumblr, i swear if i were her i would like do a house tour. hell, maybe even a whole condo tour. but its good la, means she is not like those showy2 kind of ppl, and you can also tell that im a horrible person cos i would do a whole condo tour if i had a house like hers.LOL

oh and for sure we'll make another video around early september cos we're going to the upcoming beach party together. sexcited hkgiuyugk!!! so yeah, do check out her blog http://thatvainpot.blogspot.com she's awesome at make up

PS
anyway today i broke my concert virginity by going to Paramore
let me quote the awesome Ms Haley Williams: "for those who have never been to paramore, welcome to our family" she is just so real. wearing a plain black tank top and jeans and still look so beautiful. pictures from my weekend will be up soon. love you bunnies. finally a proper update all for you xoxo

idk why but yesterday night was awesome, i got the best of both worlds, i got mira - the girl who will nvr fail to layan my nonstop talking when yat is too tired to entertain me already and plenty of hugs kisses and lurve from bf. so overall it really made my night. furthermore i finished up my report already so i really2 feel liberated (for the moment) since i have more projects looming over me but nvm about that. consider this a kind of a treat for myself after like 3 days of squeezing my brains out for that assignment in which i think i did kinda badly -.-

mira i thought u were bitchy and kinda show off at first but after talking to you,ure a nice friend to be ard with,u make me laugh and stuff,donno whether ure 2 faced or not but idc about that. life is too short to be so paranoid abt these kind of things. as long as i enjoy her company,that's fine with me
xoxoxoxo

tried dyeing our hair but its still looks the same after we washed it

they say if a couple looks like siblings they can last long but sadly we only look alike in this picture

right now there's a lot of chatter abt me moving on so fast and all but then only a certain few knows the real story about why i decided to go on to the next guy. after all that experience with failed relationships and all, i am not the same girl i used to be when it comes to love. but then i will just go with the flow <3

The Way You Are - David Choi & Kina Grannis

ni untuk hidayat <3

The Way You Are - David Choi & Kina Grannis

ni untuk hidayat <3

told ya im not flawless
and thats why me and digicams dont get along (especially flash mode)

Miguel - Quickie

Mr. Big - To Be With You

some ppl stuff their faces when they are sad because they feel in control,they can control the amount of food they eat it makes them feel better. on the other hand,my mood to eat, my appetite..disintegrates completely and im losing weight like crazy i look at the mirror and im kinda grossed out cos i can see my the upper part of my ribcage already lol i hate being like this

Wale - The Break Up Song (Full Official Version)

Yeah
See, breaking up it's hard to move along it's even harder
It's over she got colder now can't locate where her heart is
And I'm just being honest, since we not even talking
My mind won't let you go
She even consider stalking na
You know I be teasin' no
You know that my ego won't
Thought this was forever love
Guess that was just seasonal
She got back with her old boy
She's probably had a reason though
Although thought that we would grow
Guess that wasn't feasable
But we ain't gotta be beefin tho
I miss you at my recent show
Speak to cj often tho
Sometimes I just wanna speak you up
Yeah, hit you up, or call you up, or send a text
Your new man got my respect
So if I do call it's just a check
Heard that you ight though
My nigga for life though
It's funny how this life go
We love for a while then a light goes
Took me a while just to write those
Pride I had to fight so I'mma stop right here
And I know you don't care
But I hope you got that bite boo

Ellen's Favorite Hidden Camera Pranks!

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crazy racist family @ Tyra Banks show