i don't fit in this lifestyle,seriously. people all around me were drunk as hell and having the time of their lives and i was like..the only sober bloke wondering what the fuck is going on around here

im fine with not having a best friend,yes really i can handle being on my own. as long as i have a few outings once in a while, with close friends. i cant handle the commitment of having a best friend. i find it very hypocritical that once u have a boyfriend,ur best friend apparently takes a back seat, the best friend that you swear to stick to forever? so that's why...i don't have a best friend. and i don't intend to have one. and if i were to choose a best friend, i will choose mine from outside of the town clan because town kids cannot be trusted. i don't trust anyone. and even if i trust some, i don't trust them with all i have. because i know we bitch a lot and about everyone, about our old friends, our new friends, people who we are nice to but secretly hate? and i won't be surprised if they bitch about me before, in fact it's not about being two faced anymore.. its about having many faces. even i dont trust myself sometimes

Pet Peeves

When people say "literally" when they mean "figuratively." 

This happens all the time to me. People say things like "I hadn't eaten all day, so I was literally starving to death!" Really? Literally starving to death? Did your stomach bloat out like those kids in Africa? Did Sally Struthers come to your rescue? I was on a date once and the girl said "I'm a Floating Assistant. I literally float from group to group." Uh-huh. So, you're a balloon of some kind then? Is your office flooded and you use water wings to get around? Argh!

Guilty. should start using 'figuratively' from now on.


Putting on a clean pair of socks, entering the bathroom or kitchen and standing in a water splash left on the floor, thus getting your clean socks wet and forcing you to change them.


When the lotion bottle suddenly has some sort of moisturizing diarrhea all over everything
You want a little bit of lotion, but no, first it won't come out at all, and then it ALL comes rushing out everywhere. What do you do with all of that lotion? Offer to "share" with strangers? Try to put it back in the bottle? Go soothe the chafed skin of the entire population of a third world country?


People who compare their relationship to Romeo and Juliet

OK, if you're 14, both of your families are in a terrible blood feud, and you're ready to kill yourself over someone you've only known for a week, you MIGHT have a point. Otherwise, you're just proving you have never read Shakespeare. Way to go, dummy.

When people push their music on me, assuming that I am going to like it the most insistent they are about how great this song or band is. IT SUCKS!

I don't like your music. I don't have to like your music. Stop pushing your crappy music on me, thinking that I am going to have an epiphany and suddenly get on my knees and thank you for introducing me to the crappy band that you like.

Paper cuts

So much hurt, yet so little to show for it.

nearly 6 months together. been through alot, he experience things with me that he never experienced with other girls before, same goes for me too. we've been through ups and downs..never gave up on you even if it seems like i do but actually i don't.

Kat Deluna - Drop It Low Full Song 2011

this really really inspired me. to escape the harsh reality of the world and spend a day doing this. i think it would really do wonders for our souls, i really should do this. but not this week though. cos this week im booked. like totally booked. lisa marie white's chalet on Sat and i am supa stoked, then sarada school thingy on Sunday, plus...zirca, which doesn't excite me as much but since i get to clinch guest list..it won't hurt to go. even though i promise no more dance floor shit till 18- but one has to make way for some allowances am i right ;)

i uploaded this on facebook with the caption...make up does wonders to the average face

view complete album on my facebook 

i changed my blogger layout to the default template already,i find it more..professional. been farting incessantly the past few mins which means...i have to take a dump. i like shitting,shitting is therapeutic. its like releasing all your cooped up stress through anal means

i just cannot take group pictures cos i always end up looking like a fucktard

She walks the same path everyday, scruffy vans worn down with age and unforgiving weather. Her arms wrapped around a book, held close to her chest. She treasures and appreciates her love for reading. She knows, it doesn't come easy. Takes years to develop a love for something so lengthy...and full of words. Her eyes squinted against the glare of the sun, weather is hot. Not the usual hot, but the angry kind of hot. Like the Sun is shining its anger off. A bad day for her to be out, with the sun all moody and temperamental. But she cannot afford to miss school. She needs that USA trip badly. Oblivious to the cacophony of her surroundings, she walked, her mind still in a whirl of thoughts. Hair tied up, scrawny-looking from all those hair dyes. Red spectacles mounted on that too bulbous of a nose. Her average looks and lanky small frame, not worth a second glance. But it doesn't matter. Public scrutiny is the least of her concerns

above paragraph written by me, the paragraph itself describes ME, no plagiarism whatsoever
okay i feel all composition-ish today because i just finished reading a book called The Missing Girl, the title tells everything really

in reality i am such an awkward person. i don't know how to bring myself about around kids because they are just so damn honest, so damn truthful they're almost transparent. the way they look at you, its like they can tell whether you're a bad person or a good person. and obviously i've always gotten the evil eye. i don't know why children find me so unappealing. maybe because they can feel that i am uncomfortable around them. and thats where irony hits me right smack in the face. i am in an early childhood course. but children hate me. and the worst thing is, sucking up with children is difficult because they can see right through you, they can sense whether you are being genuine or not. i just wish that i have this charm that attracts children like a magnet. I WISH. 

i am so fucking scared for my attachment because not only am i awkward with children, i am also awkward with adults. being professional with them, around them. imagining myself assisting the teachers, it shakes me to the core. maybe it is time i learn to grow up and be more of a woman. you know, take charge. 

ok i swear that i am in a fucked position because i lost ALL 12 of my art pieces and i have to redo them all over again from scratch hais... i m so gonna die,how the hell to redo all in one day. wat did i do until i deserve such ungodly fate i was just about to rest for my holiday tmr godammit la, should i sleep first then do? nonono i should do at least  a few art pieces today then sleep. 

hais i miss u taupik miss u miss u ~ 

gonna go j.co grab some oreo donuts then head off somewhere nice and quiet to do my art hais seriously fml to the core, i want to go marsiling ton there can? with taupik :(

J. Cole - It Won't Be Long

Beauty doesn't need to be a tangible thing; it does not need to be visible to the eye. For example, love. Yes, we can see the acts of love when a mother breastfeeds her child or in the way a husband looks at his wife, but the real feeling, the beauty in the feeling itself could not be seen, but it can only be felt by the person experiencing it. Beauty compromises of everything, and anything. Beauty does not need to be aesthetically pleasing in general. It does not even need to be literally beautiful. Beauty can be abstract. It doesn’t need to have a definite form; we can find beauty in the ever-changing waves, be it ocean waves or maybe we don’t need to take the word ‘waves’ too literally, and see beauty in the waves of time.


You're beautiful. in every way possible. your imperfections, are they even imperfections to me? no fuck no. i love the way your voice breaks even though you cant help it i love the fact that you have those baby fats because it is so nice to cuddle with you, so tell me are they called imperfections, if i enjoy them? if i have a liking towards them? fuck what you think about yourself because if only you can see you through my eyes, you would have think that i am looking at a greek god or something


You've changed me as a person. you've changed me in a way no previous guys can, you made be something that i wasn't before. i have never love anyone like you, i have never loved anyone like how i am loving you right now. I put your needs before my own and that is not because i have to just because you're my boyfriend, no it is beyond that, it is beyond status. beyond my comprehension even. 

see im such a skinny beyotch
last saturday picture

today is a gurreat day
i lazy want to elaborate byeee

Asia Cruise - Selfish

Break Up Song - Wale

J. Cole - In The Morning Ft Drake (Friday Night Lights Mixtape) [HD/Down...

"i dont add people, people add me"
reality checkkkk gurrrllll you're not that much of a big deal.well in my eyes you're not. because for someone to say that, you have to at least be..errr pretty? No disrespect but its either God created you as an animal and accidentally placed you to roam among us humans or maybe its just beause i hate you. and because i hate you, you're not sexy and your face does not resemble a cat. at all. nada. ok maybe a cat that's been hit by Truck Ugly..or drowned in River Fuckface. or a hybrid of feline and Sarah Boyle.

St. Trinian's - Official Trailer [HD]

watching this right now

i wish i was the kind of girl who is beautiful enough for you, so that you won't bother to look at the rest :/ 

time for a change.
i've been putting enjoyment as a priority
and thrown my education at the backseat
and i realize that... its a big mistake?
this blog wont be like what it used to be soooo....
if you want blogs that would satisfy your thirst for beauty, fashion and flashy town life, then my blog won't really be your cup of tea
its going to be a mundane life ahead :)
going to do beach today with boyfriend as a small celebration cos i've finished my part of the assignment

Chris Brown - My Last (Official Video)

chris brown. just him.

Yumiko Kayukawa

this 
is 
a 
story
about 
a girl
who cried
a river
and 
drowned
the 
whole
world

Beautiful People - Benny Benassi feat. Chris Brown HQ

im going to drag myself to bed now... 
so i could rot and cry the night away  


unexplainable crankiness and sadness may be due to lack of donuts because when i went to jco they only had green tea and glazed donuts left which sucks. so tonight my dreams will be bombarded with little balls of dough, some chocolate,some oreo.. i shall return,my loyal subjects
do u know im having a heartbreak over literally ... nothing?
cant believe i get so jealous easily. its so hard to not give a fuck
i mean the fact that there are so many pretty girls out there and it just scares the freaking day lights out of me, i think im starting to get a too paranoid,someone slap me

tibetan skull top ftw,first time wearing skull top since nobody wanted to buy it zz
yesterday watched fast and furious 5 with alot of people
it was awesome, fast and furious 5 #topmoviefavz
tomorrow anugerah,got my ticket already yay cant wait to go with sarah fathin myra <3
since i didnt see tom sing for the first time, cos i paitau plus didnt even catch it on tv cos i was outside while anugerah was showing.so it'll be nice to watch his 2nd performance at mediacorp,so yea im superstoked

i just got to know that my boyfriend's sister is my bestfriend's friend. WHAT A SMALL WORLD

Duck Sauce - Barbra Streisand Official Video

feel good song

kalau korang suke satu bende ni,gile babi, and bende tu boleh dikatekan susah nak dapat, kalau org tanye kau ade bilang tak?takde kan? eh ni lumrah manusia, kalau kite suke bende tu, kite taknak banyak org pakai rite?tau la kau nak panggil aku selfish bitch.panggil k panggil. yg penting pukimak korang. kau ade computer, make it to good use, instead of jadi anjing spam2 org, kau gy GOOGLE.COM gy carik,ade otak pakai, tu otak kluarkan dari jubo kau takmo bikin jerok

i am going to do banner for,err, ehem..SYAZANI so weird calling him syazani instead of tom, ya la famous alr come out tv ready, yanna suke je, rembat die baru tau.