because love is about sacrificing your happiness and putting their happiness first

im so stupid
loving you makes me the
stupidest girl
in the world

James Morrison - Broken Strings ft. Nelly Furtado

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Finally a big change for my hair after months of.....medusa's hairdo on my head

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Ameilia Lily's Judges' Houses audition - The X Factor 2011 Judges' House...

Daughtry - Life After You

This is for all who messed up a good thing and didn't get a second chance. Now pick yourself up, don't stalk, and do it right the first time with the next person. We can't take back what we say once it's said. Good luck.

maybe we'll be together, in an alternate universe, where I am a better version of myself

Now playing James Morrison feat Nelly Furtado - Broken strings

there is no school today and i woke up at 1pm

and i went to ite tamp.....just because.

sometimes i question my motive of going out because the only thing i'll end up doing is slacking. 

which is kinda pathetic 

I need to distance myself away from potential heart breaks

i need to stop contacting guys just to fill this void in my heart because i think what im doing right now is suicide. what if i fall for a certain guy, and he falls for me too? and then we get serious and then we get into a relationship? and with that comes commitment, which will then lead to fights because commitments usually adds strain to a relationship where u tend to control the person more, and then there comes third parties which will then lead to heartaches and crying and sleepless nights and coming to school in a state which i call The Zombie State where u will just stare into nothingness and it will take a toll on your studies which will spiral downwards and you will end up failing your exams = not get into an institution of your choice = not get your dream job = not get a stable career and tc of urself + parents = unable to tc of parents means unable to tc of potential husband + children = end up not getting married = parents die, dissapointed in you = siblings living their own life = while you die alone = failure in life 

im sorry but im very pessimistic tonight

i think this song makes me all saddish

screw you james morrison

Ok im lying all the above paragraph is a lie

because i love you :( 

and im such a sucky pretender :( 

why must i love you why :( 

Janet Devlin's audition - The X Factor 2011 (Full Version)

I need to let go of my ex Its already a year
You are one hell of prick
Bye.

For now I'm stuck, infatuated with a smart-mouthed pretty-faced junkie, who I pretend not to give a damn about, I always put a hard front in front of him because I know he is the kind of guy who loves the to bask in the knowledge of a girl liking him so therefore i wont give him the satisfaction of knowing. Sadly for me I think about him every conscious second and he is quite a regular act in my subconscious too... I dream of you. Bad dreams, good dreams, never wet dreams though i am not quite sure why

I hate the fact that you are not really affected by anything that i do but i know at the back of my mind you are starting to grow a fondness for me. But you, I can never trust because you are a scheming, deceiving little mother fucker but i love you and that just sucks balls

k serious aku rase mcm aku adalah perempuan paling bodoh dalam dunia. nak harapkan kau boleh buat aku bahagie, lol seriously aku blinded, dgn kate kate kau yg kau tak mean it langsung yg kau pakai berkali kali dekat berape ribu perempuan aku pun tak tau, aku tak tau siape aku dalam hidup kau, and aku tknk tahu pun, thanks seriously, thanks
im going to fuck off for now, i wont blame you because fuck it la we're both single wat the fuck do i expect sia lol. what do i fucking expect? a motherfucking commitment? lol why the fuck am i still hanging on, why the fuck? i am just a fucking rebound for you and i still hang on like an idiot


im just someone you find whenever you are bored. Honestly dude im your last resort, if your options were in a fucking barrel, i would be where you are scraping the bottom. i was so blind to not even see that i was your fucking booty call, that you want me just because it is convenient to love me because i will fucking train to boonlay which is fucking 1 hour from my place almost every week and trust me it is not a fucking joy ride okay getting there. the things i do for you hidayat. fuck you
and to think that i let myself believe that you love me? what the fuck was i thinking lol janny ure a fucking bimbo


its not funny okay because i cannot make my heart stop loving him and he is gonna keep treating me like a mother fucking option and there's not a single fucking thing i can do about it. fuck, its like im in love with 2 guys, okay wait im not in love with 2 guys, i cannot get over the other one and im in love with one....okay wait i dont love him i just like him alot....uhh kay nvm yg penting aku sakit hati sekarang