yesterday was the first saturday out of a lot of saturdays that i went out and it was horrible
guess i should just stick with school

Benny Benassi feat. Pitbull - Put It On Me [NEW SONG 2011]

so im gonna stay back everyday after school to buck up on my studies
wish me luck bunnies n.n

the PL150 with front lcd camera and beauty mode

i just want a boyfriend that gives me love and attention
i just want someone who will treat me like a princess
all girls want to be princesses

so yeah...its okay not to look okay

Yuna - Deeper Conversation

sumpah audio mcm sial or is it just my macbook

ok idk why i am taking this anon formspringer seriously but i guess i have to set some stuff straight. i keep bringing my hair to the side, not because i want to show my tits, hell if i have C cup boobies then of course i will show them off but sadly i dont so yes rest assured im not showing them off. truth is.... i guess ppl who wear clip on extensions will totally get me,sometimes my real hair tends to show and if i dont do the "boob flashing action", my hair will look unnatural so thats why i keep pushing them to the side SOMEONE WITH CLIP ONS PLSSSS TELL THEM ITS TRUE (idk why im telling u guys the truth seriously since you already think otherwise)

boys boys boys

idk why the audio is so off in this video, it totally spoils everything urgh i re-uploaded it like 3 times but the audio is still screwed....ok whatever anyway this video is like a month old so..enjoy!

p/s: anyway this video actually describes my boyfriend right now LOL cos he has everything that i stated there..well except for the abs but he can work on that and even if he doesnt have abs, i dont even care cos he is already perfect in my eyes. like imagine me being a scientist in a lab and im like concocting some formula for The Perfect Guy and im like mixing around some chemicals like... chemical "Looks", chemical "Heart", chemical "Brains" and then i kinda hit my arm against this "Chemical X" and poof! taufiq emerges from amidst all that scientific mess..ok nvm u guys wont get it 

KIDS REACT to Rebecca Black - Friday

[HD] Dirt Nasty - I Can't Dance Ft. LMFAO

Under The Bed (p.s. You Must Be A Model...)

LOLLOLOLOLOL

You Looking At P@#!?

LOL

solo trip to ikea to buy candles

for what? u shall see soon

and ikea is such a therapeutic place i swear, yes there is the usual hustle and bustle but the atmosphere is just so different from the normal singapore-y places. idk i just can put my finger on it. or is it just cos i am alone..therefore i tend to feel more aware of my surroundings..or something. but idk i just feel so relaxed after the whole process of going in there > finding candles > have a simple snack > back to the real world

so yep....thats what the candles are for. i know that just saying sorry is not enough. actually i wanted to place the candles where he can see them from the 4th storey but i got to know that they have takraw so my plan of him looking at the candles from outside his house is out of e question alr..time to improvise! called up a trusted friend of his to help me out with the setting up,cant believe i used up almost 200 candles? the words look abit ugly-looking cos we were seriously rushing like crazy cos theyre coming in like a few mins and my thumb was sooo sore and everyone of his friends were helping me stalling him. u can imagine how hectic it was

so yes,when he arrived and saw the flickering flames from afar, he doesnt have any idea what's going on-.- even when he went nearer and saw the words 'im sorry'...he STILL doesnt know its for him!! so i went out of my hiding place and then he was like holy shit!.... oh now i geddittttt

he told me at first he thought it was a cult ritual kinda thing with the candles and all and i was like boy..u better put a leash on that imagination of yours


and yes it is my first time doing something like this for a guy because i seriously feel so bad abt what i've done and the guilt is eating. me. alive. i just had to do this,and i know this wont get rid of the hurt but i just want you to know that i am really really regretful. i just cant bear to leave you. i love you baby.

pictures taken by a seemingly insincere photographer LOL

Arash - Broken Angel Remix

this song calling my name. i like

1st

2nd

Pitbull feat. Enrique Iglesias - Come & Go (Final Version) [NEW SONG 2011]

myrakie keep pestering me to open this song and the first time i listened to it i was like...what the fuck o.O but then it stuck to me until i had to call her and ask for the song title erghhh

dinner@kennyrogers

currently 9.05am fathin and myrakie sleepin over my house,but right now only fathin's in the room while myrakie is off..whisked away by afad-.- she's coming back here in a while i guess and asked us not to sleep....fuck her man after my breakfast im so gonna hit the sacks lol fyi we didnt sleep from last night ok!

uploaded this video cos i just wanted to share it with you guys and ya..my mum likes taking videos of us when we have dinner or something. lol i think thats very cute of her

I know things are rough between us..even your friends asked u to move on and i am so touched that u dont want to.but i know you are hurt baby,and i wish i can share your pain..but i know i cant and you also wont let me feel your pain. despite what everyone thinks,i know we can make it far. we have so much chemistry,so much love. i know i've done a lot of things, very very bad things. HORRIBLE THINGS..i swear on my (future) grave that i wont do those things no more,gonna erase them from my book and make a new one thats filled with just you and only you. just dont give up on me halfway i promise i will make up for all those tears

hmm today...light em up. thats all im gonna say;)

wtf my wannabe fierce face
ok catching a movie later
so much for my stay home saturday lolz
will unite with potterheads all over sgpore tonite
i think im gonna cry

CathyMay15 Boom Boom Boom Way Ho Girl

the jb trip was last week i think o.O
before all this drama happened
but i seriously had a blast going out with my mum and taufiq
it was not awkward at all...its like we really are family
going to upload a video that my mum took of us, i think she has a thing for taking videos during dinners

if i keep thinking that i am no good for anyone,
then will i find true happiness if i cant even find happiness within myself?

Outasight Good evening

Chiddy Bang - "The Good Life" (w/ Lyrics)

actually the picture above you is suppose to move cos i planted a gif smack above this post but then i replaced it with a kinda sad picture of me cos this is a kinda sad post, i shall upload my happy gif when i write a happy entry ;) 

so anyways back to being sad......

ok........sometimes you realize you have to let go of the people you love for their happiness because their happiness is your happiness. let them go not with resentment in your heart, but with willingness because bad feelings will harden you and it will turn you into a miserable person. miserable people radiate bad vibes and bad vibes are not cool

girls,it is okay to be sad because being sad is part of human nature. it is also okay to feel sorry for yourself, to get that tub of ice cream and eat your feelings out (in my case i eat donuts) but you have to remember that the world doesn't revolve around you and your binging episodes, nor do they wait for you to finish that box of tissues. no. time and life stops for nobody and they jolly well don't stop for you...and by you, i mean me, because this post is..well, for me actually. 

i keep typing and back-spacing, typing and back-spacing because there is just no words that can describe how i feel right now. there i go again blaming other things other than myself. "oh, its the english language, not me!" i guess the real reason why i couldn't find any words to portay my feelings is because of my limited vocabulary lol 

it's hard you know. to not blame anyone in situations like this. it is so tempting to point fingers at everyone...but yourself. and somehow we tend to point our finger to the heavens too. it is kinda wrong, yeah, but may i argue that whatever happens to us, i believe, is the work of fate. we as humans can only plan but God is the one that decides. we can try to avoid undesirable situations but well...that's just it. we can only try:) but this does not mean we throw our hands up and call it quits..we don't just muck around, thinking: "oh nevermind, some divine being will decide my life for me" i guess i wont achieve anything if i just sit and stone like some lazyfuck

our heart's capacity for love is boundless, and this is one of the many obstacles that i have to face before God presents me my soulmate. how can we learn to appreciate if we are not given hardships? 

OK i really sound as if im trying to make myself look like a saint.....when im not-.- so to set things clear, i am the bigger bitch when it comes to stuff involving third parties. cos i am quite the flirt and YESSSS i meet other guys too so....*shrugs* i guess karma is finally showing me who's boss around here

how can someone possibly be so good looking?whoa God i think you need to send some much needed maintenance for your love machine up there, you know that machine that decides who gets to be with who because i think he is supposed to be with some other girl. 

 ok from these pictures actually u can see a bit of my eczema peeking lol but i dont really care anymore as long as its not itchy. the steroid injection is a miracle cos it doesnt itch like...99% of the time so i am really thankful for that injection.

life has been one hell of a ride.
in one week so many things can change
so many things

a few more days and school is going to reopen and idk how i feel about it seriously, i just want to get it over and done with.

im sure you all are familiar with da bagz:)

Jessie J - Who You Are (Boombox Series)

love the way she sings,breathtaking >.<

Medina- Kun For Mig

never gets old

hello these pictures are from a new camera, i love samsung cos it has beauty mode ehehe

yesterday spent a night at myrakie's family chalet and i swear the company was very unexpected because it has been a long time since i talked to them and it kinda made me miss everything about them /:

pictures of my extensions
i feel like showing you how disturbing it looks like

ibu's 2 presents for me,once in a while indulgence. thank you ibu:)