solo trip to ikea to buy candles

for what? u shall see soon

and ikea is such a therapeutic place i swear, yes there is the usual hustle and bustle but the atmosphere is just so different from the normal singapore-y places. idk i just can put my finger on it. or is it just cos i am alone..therefore i tend to feel more aware of my surroundings..or something. but idk i just feel so relaxed after the whole process of going in there > finding candles > have a simple snack > back to the real world

so yep....thats what the candles are for. i know that just saying sorry is not enough. actually i wanted to place the candles where he can see them from the 4th storey but i got to know that they have takraw so my plan of him looking at the candles from outside his house is out of e question alr..time to improvise! called up a trusted friend of his to help me out with the setting up,cant believe i used up almost 200 candles? the words look abit ugly-looking cos we were seriously rushing like crazy cos theyre coming in like a few mins and my thumb was sooo sore and everyone of his friends were helping me stalling him. u can imagine how hectic it was

so yes,when he arrived and saw the flickering flames from afar, he doesnt have any idea what's going on-.- even when he went nearer and saw the words 'im sorry'...he STILL doesnt know its for him!! so i went out of my hiding place and then he was like holy shit!.... oh now i geddittttt

he told me at first he thought it was a cult ritual kinda thing with the candles and all and i was like boy..u better put a leash on that imagination of yours


and yes it is my first time doing something like this for a guy because i seriously feel so bad abt what i've done and the guilt is eating. me. alive. i just had to do this,and i know this wont get rid of the hurt but i just want you to know that i am really really regretful. i just cant bear to leave you. i love you baby.

pictures taken by a seemingly insincere photographer LOL