i always have this thing nowadays to fall for someone whose main objective of contacting me is to make me as a rebound of some sort. and even though i am very aware of that fact, i still cant fucking walk away from all this and thats why i am so angry. i am so angry at myself for being so stupid and i am so angry at you for making me think that there will ever be anything more than this 

Im over here trying to act like i don't care but sometimes i falter and you witness for yourself, my weakness for you showing through the cracks of this questionable wall of denial that i created for myself...i really suck at pretending.